The thought of you coming into my life overwhelms this mama's heart with so much joy. I always have known that I would meet you some day. I also have known that it was possible to love someone before you've even met them. I realized this when I was praying for God to bring your daddy into my life. I knew he was out there somewhere, I just didn't know where. But the moment your daddy first kissed me, I knew he was the one I had been praying for and setting my love aside for.
Now, we say this about you. I love you sweet baby. More than I think anyone has every loved another being. I don’t know where you are right now but I pray everyday that God is forming you and making you just for me. And I know He is. You and your daddy are gonna be best friends! And me and you? Inseparable.
But as much as me and your daddy love you, God loves you even more. I don't know you yet. I don't know what you look like or if you have hair or not. I don't know what color your skin is or even your eyes. I have no idea if you are a boy or a girl. But God does. And that brings me great joy and comfort.
I want you to know how much we have wanted you. There is nothing that will every change this feeling. Nothing you can do or say will make us stop wanting or loving you. You are so special and were made perfectly to be just who God intended you to be.
Your first mommy loves you too. I pray fervently that you are growing strong in her tummy and that God keeps her out of harms way to protect your fragile life. I want you to know that God is working on her heart right now to bring you to me and your daddy. It will not be an easy decision for her to let you go so that you can be with us. But she loves you enough to know that it is what's best for you. And I can only pray that she sees how much you will be loved in our arms.
As much as I want to call you ours, I can't. Because you are not going to be ours at all. You belong to your heavenly Father and we will raise you so that one day, with much prayer, He will be yours also. More than anyone in this entire world, even me and daddy, He loves you unconditionally and He longs for you to know Him.
You, little one, are an answer to many prayers, by many people who love you already. And no matter how tired I am, how covered in your spit up and poop, how cranky you are, how much sleep I
So, precious child, on those days when this world tells you that you aren’t good enough, you come home to me, your mom, who loved you before she met you and I will remind you that you are covered in His fingerprints. That you. Are. His.
All my love,
Mom
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